bleeding earlobes

although they're no longer "bleeding"
but it was really scary while it was first watery then sticky then bleeding!!!

alright everyone, happy new year!

12/28/08

I don't' know what to put for the title, so I put today's date on it.
Just one more week, my best friend, Becca, will be return to the US from Ireland.
so....now I'm secretly doing something for her with everyone from our church.
Hope she will like it! : )


Well and Love.

Please let me know

that if I'm too crazy for your brain

TIME AT WILMINGTON, NC

rush but fun

I don't know why that our fun time always happen in rush.

My parents and me planned this trip the night before we get on the road. Yep, it might be just nine hours before we actually got on the road, to Wilmington which located three hours away from where we live.

but we had lots of fun. we broght our dog, Meimei, with us too. Althought she was screaming in the car the whole time, but I was sure she had fun too while she was running and playing at the beach.

I hope that we will have another trip soon.

Well and love. : )

Dreams and Lives

I think the old soul back alive again cuz I start dreaming and seeing things more often than usual.

then guess what I saw, the room while I was sitting in the couch and watchinig myself walking down the stairs....and yea, later I found out it's actually my friend, Tanner's house.

then I saw the room with white wall with a big tree in the middle and has two entries....and yea, it's my other friends, Matt and Lily's house, but the room now is with a small tree in a cup.

these dreams seem to tell me where I will be and where I should be...

nothing wrong with it, just not the way as others seeing things. I know. I know.

and another thing, I was talking with my friend in my car on the way home. I told him who I like and the person I used to like.

Although age is pretty serious issue in America, maybe in everywhere, I personally really don't feel it's something would actually bother me. I mean, what if your truth love is someone twice your age? are you still welling to take it? or just follow the norms made by OTHER PEOPLE WHO ARE NOT EVEN RELATED WITH YOUR OWN LIFE? it's really fair to yourself?

people, YOU'RE YOURSELF AND YOU CAN BE ONLY YOURSELF, so why bother following others' rules??

Use your mind to handle your life! : )

Forget to say

Yesterday was the first day of hanukkah and also the first day of winder (from Chinese calender).

In tradition, Chineses will celebrate this date by having "tang yuag". So I had some "tang yuag" with my family yesterday!!

Amazing because it is

http://1thingineedtochange.com/

It's difficult to explian how similar that myself and my religion are together.
I start attending church since the middle of 2008. Although it's a really young church, Journey, but many things I've heard from here were totally amazing me.
I won't say my life was horrible before I start attending church , but later I found out the "theories of lives" that people talking about were complete the same with my own.

Once a friend from Youth (the night youth group activity that youth get together) asked me how do I think about my "new religious" and do I feel comfortable with it or not...honestly, there had zero question before I started attending church, and today I still have ZERO QUESTION.

Years ago, I was someone who once from a Catholic family. Everyone in this family was really into the religion until one day some of the members got divorced, some of the members lost job, some of the member moved to another county....yea lots of reasons and excuses. Still, I was just from a family that fulfilled with this religion, but I was not one of them, I was like a totally individul pieace from the family.
Years later, I tried to find myself in the unknow sea. Every time I got lost, I would just sat myself down a little bit, but it took longer and longer for healing myself and getting back to normal. Yes, then I totally lost myself after the end of my old relationship with a close friend.
The same year, I moved to the U.S., and spent more than years to put myself back into one from pieaces.
During this period of time, I always had a question which also took me years to figure it out.

"What I'm doing here?"

Although I surroed with many friends and most of my family memebers were here, I still had difficult time to settle myself down. With this difficulty, taking care of meself was the hardest job I've ever has.

Until the first night at youth, with my lovely friend Becca W, I found the clud which explian why I was still here, and today, I'm still here, with more joyful and purer thoughts and loves.

Althoguht there still have some missing pieaces that don't get back in time, I'm still here trying to be a better person, or just the person I used to be while I was as one.

One thing I need to change, is letting myself be opened for thoughts and minds again. Taking care of others from bottom of my heart with a better way which won't letting my "candle" burned out.

Love, as always.

Hello

As usual, I'd like to say hi to whoever using blogger on this site.
I hope I can keep things updated as long as possible cuz I used to be too lazy typing the things happened to me over again, it just seems over reviewing my life....but for sharing life, I really like to have this part of my life changed : )

I will see you guys again soon