Amazing because it is

http://1thingineedtochange.com/

It's difficult to explian how similar that myself and my religion are together.
I start attending church since the middle of 2008. Although it's a really young church, Journey, but many things I've heard from here were totally amazing me.
I won't say my life was horrible before I start attending church , but later I found out the "theories of lives" that people talking about were complete the same with my own.

Once a friend from Youth (the night youth group activity that youth get together) asked me how do I think about my "new religious" and do I feel comfortable with it or not...honestly, there had zero question before I started attending church, and today I still have ZERO QUESTION.

Years ago, I was someone who once from a Catholic family. Everyone in this family was really into the religion until one day some of the members got divorced, some of the members lost job, some of the member moved to another county....yea lots of reasons and excuses. Still, I was just from a family that fulfilled with this religion, but I was not one of them, I was like a totally individul pieace from the family.
Years later, I tried to find myself in the unknow sea. Every time I got lost, I would just sat myself down a little bit, but it took longer and longer for healing myself and getting back to normal. Yes, then I totally lost myself after the end of my old relationship with a close friend.
The same year, I moved to the U.S., and spent more than years to put myself back into one from pieaces.
During this period of time, I always had a question which also took me years to figure it out.

"What I'm doing here?"

Although I surroed with many friends and most of my family memebers were here, I still had difficult time to settle myself down. With this difficulty, taking care of meself was the hardest job I've ever has.

Until the first night at youth, with my lovely friend Becca W, I found the clud which explian why I was still here, and today, I'm still here, with more joyful and purer thoughts and loves.

Althoguht there still have some missing pieaces that don't get back in time, I'm still here trying to be a better person, or just the person I used to be while I was as one.

One thing I need to change, is letting myself be opened for thoughts and minds again. Taking care of others from bottom of my heart with a better way which won't letting my "candle" burned out.

Love, as always.